1. Describe the exercise and assessment process. What did you discover about yourself? What area have you chosen to be a focus of growth and development? Why? What are some specific exercises or activities that you can implement to foster greater wellness in this area?
This weeks assignment humbled me, it made me cry. I live each day trying to be a good person. I work hard, I am honest, I care about others, but do not truly enjoy life. I hold myself to such standards that I hold myself back from letting go. My pride comes from raising two great sons and all that went with that as a single mom. Myself, all I know is work, I don’t know how to ask for help, I just cry and get over it. I work because I have to, not like a post in the DB that it was work to serve the Lord. I enjoy my job, but have not reached a level of satisfaction and completeness yet. I questioned if I was ever happy? Ever totally secure with my life and who I was. Always hoping someone would see who I truly was….a great person, that wanted to be saved…not just by herself. I used to say all I wanted in life was three things: peace in my life, laugher, and love. It is not that easy because each comes with its own circumstances to reach that goal, of course number one would be that my children would be fine and that no harm would come to them. The quote from this weeks reading really hit me, “The mind is both the source of happiness and the root of suffering”. The exercises are difficult for me because I have to let go, sit down and relax and not always be on the move to accomplish something. Downtime is good, today it made me feel and cry. Maybe it has led me to realize a lot about myself today. I want to reach this oneness within myself. I wrote that saying on my refrigerator to look at daily to remind myself to choose me; to heal myself, to choose happiness , to be grateful and to let others help me along the way.