The two practices that I think I could implement into my life are: Loving Kindness and Subtle mind. I believe that we cannot give to others what does not exist within ourselves. This is a real inside look at how we treat ourselves and others. I feel I am kind and respectful, but still need to grow at times when I let anger, frustration, or jealousy creep in. I am aware and trying to do better. I will remember it is not all about me and that others are important. I think I am an enabler at heart, and that is where the anger comes in. I have to learn the skill to be able to say it like it is, being open for discussion, and move forward from that. My heart is open and I share, but I am very cautious and you have to earn your trust with me. I know I will get back what I give. Trying each day to be a better person is where I will start.
The subtile mind is getting control of my thoughts and letting my mind be still. My mind is always going, sometimes at night I just can not shut down. I will use the three levels of the subtle mind which is witnessing what information I will let in. I will then have a calm mind, with stillness and balance. This will prepare me for unity consiousness or standing with the truth of who I am. I really know who I am; I keep a lot hidden for fear of rejection. I know what I want. I will concentrate on being the best that I can be, letting go of fear, and searching for the truth.
Wow, I felt like I was reading my diary when I read your post. We are a lot alike. I am a very loving person but I'm still trying to learn how to show love to myself. I use to be very trusting but a few bad relationships have left me pretty jaded...which I guess is a good thing because trust is something that should be earned. I have a lot of trouble letting go of the past. I have moved on and I am in a great relationship with my feoncee but I am still wounded from my past. I have trouble understanding why people act cruel and cold-hearted. I feel like I give so much love and kindness but when I need some from other people...it's just not there.
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Amy,
ReplyDeleteWe are alike. I was raised by an alcoholic father and I am the oldest of four. I became the enabler to try and keep things together. After I was married and became a mom, I said no more and blew. I have zero tolerance for that and expect so much more from myself and others in my life. But sometimes, I can just be too hard on myself.I am working on that.
Barb